Shit happens. But sometimes that shit to you feels like the end of the world.
Recently I went through some pretty deep and horrible heartache. Now this isn’t me saying wah wah wah shower me in attention. This is me realising that only you can fix the pain.
Emotional pain for me personally is the worst pain. If you have a broken leg you can fix it in 6 weeks with a cast and pain killers. If you see someone with a broken leg you can sympathise with them on the pain. But pain in your head and heart? You can’t pop a plaster on it and hope for it to heal.
I find that people don’t understand your pain. If they can’t see it or explain it, it’s often hard for people to sympathise with. I’m not saying that all humans are ice creatures who understand no pain, I’m saying that it’s hard for people to understand your pain.
For example, you might be emotionally exhausted but covering it well. You spill your glass of milk and that for you is the last straw. Now we all know about the saying “don’t cry over spilt milk” but I question why? Yes someone might think it’s pathetic and over exaggerated, But what if to you, that’s the end of the world. Why are you not allowed to cry and people understand?
They don’t understand Hun because they are not you. You are you, and you are allowed to be sad at whatever you want to be sad at. Regardless of if people understand at all.
You can’t relay on none professionals to understand how you are feeling and why you are feeling this way. Baby if you need to cry. Cry. Don’t ever feel the need to keep things held up inside because you are scared that people won’t understand. You will find good people in your life who may not completely understand your feelings but they will hold your hand through it. Keep those people.
Ask them for help and guidance. If your feelings are overwhelming go and seek professional help. Mental pain isn’t a quick healing process, but it can be healed. Start with within. Take your time. Look at how beautiful you are and how you deserve to feel happy and at peace.
Nobody understands how you feel. Because only you feel it. Only you can decide what’s right for you to heal the pain. But do it in a healthy way. Don’t ever put yourself into harm, you don’t deserve that. Scream. Cry. Binge watch Netflix. Eat a tub of B&J. Sleep. Be happy one day. Be sad the next. Nobody can tell you what’s right or wrong with how you feel.
Look after yourself and start to heal. It may seem a marathon but you will cross the finish line. Days. Weeks. Months. Years later. It’s your race, it’s your pace.
Keep going. Keep strong and..
Remember that I love you.